A+Double+Life

I live a double life. It's as simple as that.

Because I refuse to follow the lead, And succumb to modern society, To live for their immoral ideals, And live without living.

Because in there, you exist. You live. They tell you what you want, And you work to obtain it.

And something like that kills people, Because they don't truly live.

But no matter what, You live in reality. And you live in modern society. So I have to live there no matter what. <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">Like everybody else.

<span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">So I strive to exist in times like now. <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">The private patches of the night. <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">For in these moments, I exist among no others. <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">No one tells me what to do, or what needs to be done. <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">I can move as I please, and say likewise.

<span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">And I dream. <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">I hope. <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">I wish. <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">Because I can.

<span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">I don't learn science, <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">English, math, history. <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">I learn in my music. <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">I learn through images. <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">I read the words of those who have lived before me, <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">And the feelings of those who know what they feel. <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">I learn the things people have gone whole lifetimes to learn, <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">And their thoughts are invaluable to me. <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">I am myself, and I am one. <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">And come daybreak, I'll be back to the grey shell I live inside. <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">But I live inside.

<span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">Because times like now I am myself, <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">Not the obscure thing you see in public. <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">I strive to find happiness above all else, <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">And that comes with accepting all that you are and all around you. <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">And if you can do that, you can be happy.

<span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">But there's more to being happy than just being happy.

<span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">If you were content with living in clear, confined society, you could be happy. <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">You could be content. <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">But you know in the deepest levels of your being that you aren't, <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">Because everyone has to live. <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">Everyone has those little things they want to fight for. <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">And modern society doesn't leave many openings to do that. <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">The minds of the people become as confined as the people they are in, <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">And ultimately it closes the mind, the dreams, the hopes, <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">Because they give up. <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">They stop fighting for what they're fighting for, <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">And just give in.

<span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">I believe in love above all else. <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">I believe in compassion and caring for others. <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">I believe in friendship and companionship. <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">Hate is a feeling I find myself incapable of, <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">And I'm proud to say that I'm comfortable in my own skin. <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">I'm just not comfortable around those who will judge me.

<span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">And honestly, this feeling is amazing. <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">It is wonderful and liberating.

<span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">But every night starts another day, <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">And with the day everyone arises and resumes the clockwork schedule. <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">They go through life mechanical and scripted.

<span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">For some people, <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">That's fine.

<span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">But there are the few like me, <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">Who have to live, <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">Who have to feel something in this life, <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">Because we know that our lives are ticking. <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">And every moment deserves our best, <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">For we will never get them back again.

<span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">Living with no regrets is easy, <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">For there is no reason to ever regret anything at all. <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">At one point, whatever you did, it was what you wanted to do above all else. <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">So don't regret it, because at one point you truly wanted to do that.

<span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">And if you don't look back, <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">You move in in your life. <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">And if you go through your life, <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">You live. <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">And living is the greatest joy in your life, <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">You're doing it right now. <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">Why not enjoy it?

<span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">So I don't care, <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">If I haven't started on my homework, <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">If I run on a few hours of sleep, <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">If I'm not progressing in any way through the levels of society right now.

<span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">I'm happy. <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">In this little moment I am ultimately content with everything in my life. <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">I've been rejected by my closest friend who I love, <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">I'm freezing my [butt] off sitting here typing this, <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">I've got a ton of procrastinated work to do, <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">And my shoulder is aching.

<span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">But I can still dream. <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">I can still wish. <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">I can still hope. <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">I can still trust, <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">And I can still love.

<span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">For society hasn't taken that from me. <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">And the day it does will be the day I die. <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">Because I absolutely cannot live without this. <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">And I wonder how others can.

<span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">I am young and naive, <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">But I've had my heart broken before. <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">I've witnessed how evil some people can be, <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">The greed and selfishness that drives power to their hands. <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">I've seen how ignorance and pride drives negative feelings between the closest of friends, <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">And I've seen how ruthless some can be just to survive.

<span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">But I still have faith, <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">In people, in society, <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">In dreams. <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">In life. <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">And above all, <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">In love.

<span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">And the only thing that bothers me, <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">In this other life I live, <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">Is the perpetual loneliness from the solitude. <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">But this silly boy dreams, <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">And hopes that one day it won't be so.

<span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">I live a double life. <span style="color: #000075; font-family: Georgia,serif;">It's as simple as that.