You'll+Never+Know+-L

There I was. In my darkness, Of forced perspective, of forged goals. It was so bleak. Everything ran fine. Then a flash. An ascending light in my world. You.

You lit up my world. Revealed my prison, What I've doomed myself to. The things I have done, The things I needed to do.

I saw a hairline fracture, I destroyed the gates. Freedom? No. The dark haunts are still here. Every last one clinging, But my world is getting brighter every day. Because of you.

So now I strive, To be better. You ask, "Why are you so helpful?" I reply, "I don't know." It would be rather odd, To say, "You."

Do you know, How much you've done for me? I doubt it. Do you know, What I truly think of you? I doubt it. Do you know, What I'd do for you? I doubt it.

To be near, Is terrifying. To be far, Is heart wrenching.

It's so... Indescribable. To be near you, To merely catch your glance, Even //think// of you. My logic fails. My words run dry. My heart skips a beat.

Do you know, How captivated I am? How much I want to say? How many things, I would do, For you? Anything.

Logically, It makes no sense. Emotionally, It makes perfect sense.

I wage mental war on myself. No longer for amusement. No longer just to endure time. To justify, what I've done. To justify, what I feel.

I ask, "Why?" I get no answer.

I used to be so hollow. So empty. Unaffected. A deep yearning I always ignored. Things I walled up, Places I didn't dare go.

It didn't matter. You defeated me without trying. You fractured my thoughts, You stole my heart. And I couldn't be happier.

You'll never know. But it does not matter.

Am I truly content, With that? I'll never know.

Now, You're in my thoughts. In my heart. In my world.

Things I used to tell myself, No longer matter. Always, One constant of my mind, Of my heart. You.